The second most common question a pregnant lady is asked, "Do you know what you're having?" For the last three months, I have responded, "Not yet!" But, if you missed it in the sidebar, the big news is out.... we're having a BABY GIRL!!!
Another common question I've been asked is, "What do you think it will be?" This question has led to lots of conversations about perceptions during pregnancy. I'll be honest, I felt that this baby was a boy... along with just about everyone I came in contact with. Eva came with me to the ultrasound appointment today, and she showed visible disappointment and disbelief when the ultrasound tech checked and checked again, confirming that we "shouldn't get rid of all the clothes yet."
Honestly, though, in all the conversations about my perceptions of this baby, my gut feelings, my primary feeling has been skepticism. I felt skeptical. Such a strange word to use in regard to a little unborn baby. Truly, I suspected that something was not right with the baby or my body or that something was going to go wrong in the pregnancy. I guess I just feel like it's my turn, since I've had such ideal previous pregnancies and basically healthy babies. Then I started to feel skeptical towards the baby, suspecting that it was a boy. Having a baby boy would be great, but truthfully, I cannot picture myself being the mother to a boy. What a strange thought!
So, when the tech informed us of the gender, I felt relieved. And again, when the ultrasound was done and everything seemed normal, I felt more relieved. I guess I'm still working through these strange feelings of things not being quite right though, because I wouldn't be at all surprised to receive a call from the midwife group informing me that something was askew.
But lets just enjoy the happy news for now- we have THREE LITTLE GIRLS- what fun!